oh, doll :/: oh green,

12.15am. i sit and i get bored of what i am doing. i am finally home. finally back to the place where i long to be. back to the place where i belong. i miss this place. everything feels the same here. it is the same. college feels different. different in a lot of ways. and i have officially left that place. for now that is. i sit and i stare at one corner of the room and i get up and i leave.

2.01am. i get back and i see messages from people. they are asleep. i watch Greys Anatomy with my sister. it is beautiful. it is sad. it is powerful. that episode captures my heart. i like it. i watch a movie called The Brave One the night before. it moves me. it captures me in. it touches me in everyway. it is sad in alot of ways and i like it. it makes you wonder how true these things are. these things that happen to people. at the end of the day, we are never the same person anymore. we are different, we are no longer the person who we thought we are. we are just like strangers all over again.

2.30am. i am glad that this semester ended fast. at least, for me. i walk out early after my final paper which was on thursday. it starts at 9am and i leave at 10am. i walk out with my head held high, this is finally over. i leave and i go around putrajaya with my friends. it is fun, has always been for me. i like how the world used to be green, and in some parts of cyberjaya, it is still green. it is beautiful. i like how peaceful it gets living there. it is brilliant. i want to lie down on its grass and look up to the sky on a cloudy windy evening and say i am grateful for this moment. i am grateful, my eyes they start to wonder around this beautiful green place with lakes that have lilies and more water plants, they are beautiful. i want to capture a picture of this moment and show this to you but i dont have it. it only stays in my head and i smile at the serenity of it. and i tell myself that i like it. i like it alot. thank you to my mates back in mmu, i finally breathe together with you. although we are all different in alot of ways. my love to all of you mainly qistina, fatin, ina, daniel, ziana, zared, yana, fatin, david, yy. <3

putrajaya.

david.

ziana, yana, myself.

4.06pm. i am finally posting up pictures during christmas. i love how we spend the whole day together. i love all the singing and carolling and laughing and eating games. personally, the amount of time spent together and the people who were there, are just perfect. acs lot : anna, xinyi, mandy, mei chern, ah fu, yee han, amelia, yi ru, charmaine, mui kim, vincent, tuckie, michael, avindran, sanjiven, jim, vewan, suren. <3