6.03pm. there are times where i feel that the world is just right for me. and there are times where i feel that everything is against me. that is the time that i feel much of right now. right now, i sit and i write this because so much has been mistreated. lately. and if there was a place in the world where i can go to just of right now, it would be on a rooftop. a rooftop where i can go and climb up to, that is the place i would go right now. id lie on my back on the roof and face the sky as the clouds move along together with its wind. i let the breeze cover my figure and ease my hot tempered mind. i want to be on that cloud and raise my fingers up high till i can touch the sky above me. i want to be able to feel what its like to rise from a lower ground. it is just a dream.
6.22pm. my back is aching. it aches every time i sit to face my monitor, i am unhealthy. i want to fucking break my backbone. fuck. today, i submit my first assignment. i hate it. i dont get good comments. he gives an arrogant comment. i walk away from it. and my badass lady teacher hates us. another lady decides to be selfish and ignores us in every way. i hate this. i could give all the wrong reasons in the world to blame for what has become what it is now. but i dont do that. i can blame the environment, the people, the college but i know what a waste it would be for me to do that. so i deal with it.
7.26pm. i want a place where i can sit still and have my worries fly away. i want peace, where i could stay quiet and just stare out of my worries. i want people, who speak the language that i do and not judge with a blunt stare. i want teachers, who dont boss us around and treat us like we're fucking maggots like we havent got any feelings. i dont have any of that right now. i lose. i want to be at the astaka of acs and sit there. i like it there. i missed the feeling of sitting there looking and wonder, after a long day of school. it is, very typical of me. but brings joy to me in a lot of ways and the people i am with breathe the air that i breathe. i have not forgotten that feeling. and i strongly miss it in mi corazon.
"hear your voice, knew right away, if you were here, your eyes would say,"-rachael yamagata,sunday afternoon.
6.22pm. my back is aching. it aches every time i sit to face my monitor, i am unhealthy. i want to fucking break my backbone. fuck. today, i submit my first assignment. i hate it. i dont get good comments. he gives an arrogant comment. i walk away from it. and my badass lady teacher hates us. another lady decides to be selfish and ignores us in every way. i hate this. i could give all the wrong reasons in the world to blame for what has become what it is now. but i dont do that. i can blame the environment, the people, the college but i know what a waste it would be for me to do that. so i deal with it.
7.26pm. i want a place where i can sit still and have my worries fly away. i want peace, where i could stay quiet and just stare out of my worries. i want people, who speak the language that i do and not judge with a blunt stare. i want teachers, who dont boss us around and treat us like we're fucking maggots like we havent got any feelings. i dont have any of that right now. i lose. i want to be at the astaka of acs and sit there. i like it there. i missed the feeling of sitting there looking and wonder, after a long day of school. it is, very typical of me. but brings joy to me in a lot of ways and the people i am with breathe the air that i breathe. i have not forgotten that feeling. and i strongly miss it in mi corazon.
"hear your voice, knew right away, if you were here, your eyes would say,"-rachael yamagata,sunday afternoon.
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